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Suckerfish

by Scholtz

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A concept album that tells the story of a man who is devastated by the loss of his loved one. In his pain, he turns to machines, throwing himself into their unfeeling state until he meets someone new...and the cycle starts once again.

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released November 9, 2013

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Scholtz Everett, Washington

Scholtz is Ahren Scholtz, a singer/songwriter expressing the bits of life's randomness into coherency, one song at a time.

Recorded at Earwig Studio and mixed by Don Farwell.
Mastered at Hanzsek Studio.

Bass and Keys: Drew Mitchell
Drums: Bill Ibsen
Lead Guitar: Ilya Ignatov
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Track Name: Suckerfish
Lost in the cloudy and murky depths of self-destructive maladies
I spotted you searching for salvation and somehow you spot it in me
Longing was hemorrhaging from your eyes; it was obvious for me to see
I recognized the need right away cause the feelings reflected in me

I’m just a suckerfish searching this ocean with you
Believing what you said was real, that we’ll be together forever
Maybe you meant it or maybe you’re leading me on
Either way I’m still here with you, maybe that just means that you’re a suckerfish too

Somehow we’ve managed to get this far, despite our different degrees
Parasites paired off with obvious lifestyle discrepancies
I’m here for you as you’re here for me; maybe that’s all that we need
We’d be both lost in this ocean of faults, we’re suckerfish now you and me

I’m just a suckerfish searching this ocean with you
Believing what you said was real, that we’ll be together forever
Maybe you meant it or maybe you’re leading me on
Either way I’m still here with you, maybe that just means that you’re a suckerfish too

Maybe it’s wrong we’ve shunned all the rest
But I can’t deny that I need you to death yeah
My very salvation is tied up with you. Yeah I need you

I’m just a suckerfish searching this ocean with you
Believing what you said was real, that we’ll be together forever
Maybe you meant it or maybe you’re leading me on
Either way I’m still here with you, maybe that just means that you’re a sucker

I’m just a suckerfish searching this ocean with you
Believing what you said was real, that we’ll be together forever
Maybe you meant it or maybe you’re leading me on
Either way I’m still here with you, maybe that just means that you’re a suckerfish too
Track Name: The Tinkerer
I found you love, through divine inspiration
Now, after years, your health has complications
And my faith has failed, so I turn to science
I’ll find a way. I can’t be alone. I can’t live without you.

I’ll search both far and wide for anything to try
To keep you safe and right here by my side

I’ve tinkered on all my failed inventions
And crying out all of my frustrations
I’ve tried to invent cures on my own
I’ve tried both real and obscure things I know
I’m doing all I can for you

We’ve tried every cure from distant lands
The skills of every medicine man
And still I’m nowhere closer to saving you
Cause I’ve tried and tried to find the equation
Fingers ache and mind needs elation
From knowing there’s nothing more I can do for you
Cause every time I see your face
More anemic every day
It only gets harder and harder and harder and harder

So what now? I can only figure
That the answer lies somewhere in science
Track Name: I Have To Let Go
I Have To Let Go

The longest of nights melt into days
Days that bring no answers or hope in anyway
I see you laying there, your helpless empty stare
Regarding worlds beyond us of which I am not aware

I pace the isle between faith and technology
Wishing the machines inside of you were instead inside of me
The longer that you stay the more I feel ashamed
Ashamed of wanting this to end by any means

On and on time goes by and
I see you suffer every night
And in your eyes you’re telling me that “no
I have to let go”

It breaks my heart and worries me but I can’t seem to say
Because I’m such a coward I want the easy way
No matter what I do the pain for me is you
It’s too much for me to bear. I’m sorry.

On and on time goes by and
I see you suffer every night
And in your eyes you’re telling me that “no
I have to let go”
Track Name: Little Things
Little Things

A fractured mug, a half melted candle, pages in an often-perused book
A crocheted towel, an unused bag of spices, photos of a thousand miles away

Falling asleep seems to be the hardest thing to do without you
Lying in bed used to be our special sacred place now it’s the last thing I can face

House is filled with items I remember as being so much of what defined you
Days are long the nights are even longer, the thought of you still wakes me from my sleep
There’re too many reminders that you’re not here

Falling asleep seems to be the hardest thing to do without you
Lying in bed used to be our special sacred place now it’s the last thing I can face
I can face without you there

All these things are just reminding me of you
Little things you loved, you now imbue
I can only lose myself in my machines
Replace my heart with gears of brass and copper infused beryllium springs

My machines don’t think of comfort
I want to feel no more pain
Track Name: Malady
I’ve been where most will never go
I’ve seen what most will never know
I’ve spent so much time trying all I can do to keep you alive
I never thought it’d be easy

Now I wonder what it takes
When my soul feels like it’s gonna break
From the feelings I have buried in my heart deep down inside
Exploding out of me

Cause I gave my life for you
And I promised to protect you
And I journeyed far from home
All the promises you said
Mean only nothing now cause instead
Now I’m forced to go alone

I can’t believe places I’ve been
All to fix a life that failed to mend
It’s getting harder to remember how we started way back when
And all our naïve plans

Cause I gave my life for you
And I promised to protect you
And I journeyed far from home
All the promises you said
Mean only nothing now cause instead
Now I’m forced to go alone

Cause I gave my life for you
And I promised to protect you
And I journeyed far from home
All the promises you said
Mean only nothing now cause instead
Now I’m forced to go alone
Track Name: Love Like Machines
Love Like Machines by Ahren Scholtz

Love like machines throw away all you once believed
Love like machines bury what you want but can’t achieve
Love like machines surrender what’s left of your humanity
Love like machines

In a state of constant changes and love can take so much time
What we need is effervescent but slips through our fingers like twine
What can we do when things change?
When love leaves us pained in misery?

Love like machines throw away all you once believed
Love like machines bury what you want but can’t achieve
Love like machines surrender what’s left of your humanity
Love like machines

When we live instant to instant, the ‘whens’ all turn into ‘nows’
Nothing matters of the future, the past no longer brings us down
What’s the price that we’re paying
To give up what gives us frailty?
There’s never the pain of loneliness, there’s never emotional need


Love like machines throw away all you once believed
Love like machines bury what you want but can’t achieve
Love like machines surrender what’s left of your humanity
Love like machines

Love like machines when life fills you with despondency
Love like machines when our hearts break from our tragedies
Love like machines turn away and bury what you breed
Love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines love like machines
Track Name: Give Me More
Give Me More

Unsatiated with the promise of youth but I never knew the price of the truth
And I’d pay the toll a hundred times over to be with you I love what you do
I’m not obsessed but you really impress with the way you move with nothing to lose
The twists and turns that your body’s been making just turn me on
And activate my machine, activate my machine. Activate my machine!

Give me more give me more, ‘til I cannot take
Anymore, she said “More! You’re filling me up
In the bed, on the floor.” I want you so bad
Give me more give me more, ‘til I cannot take anymore.

The way you feel when we’re all alone just feels so right. More then I’ve known.
And do you feel the way I burn deep inside? I know you do. Your heart doesn’t lie
I must insist that being with you is all I need and I must confess
You drive me wild with your walk and your style to insanity
But it’s just a fantasy, it’s just a fantasy, it’s just a fantasy

Give me more give me more, ‘til I cannot take
Anymore, she said “More! You’re filling me up
In the bed, on the floor.” I want you so bad
Give me more give me more, ‘til I cannot take anymore.

Give me more give me more, ‘til I cannot take
Anymore, she said “More! You’re filling me up
In the bed, on the floor.” I want you so bad
Give me more give me more, ‘til I cannot take anymore.
Track Name: Butterscotch Mary
After several years I had no clue about moving on from a life without you
And then one day I saw her appear, conquered me whole with a flip of her hair

It’s your memory I’ll keep inside
And Butterscotch Mary would only be that one time

Now I’d seen beauty and I’d seen grace
But I couldn’t resist the sight of her gorgeous face
She took her time and I studied the scene
As she picked out which topping to put on her ice cream

It’s your memory I’ll keep inside
And Butterscotch Mary would only be that one time

She commanded my complete attention
And the voice she spoke with was so bright
Eyes like tea with a playful warm expression
Gazed back into mine

At that moment I saw you appear with a warning of what would happen if she drew near
She introduced herself as Mary then I thought to myself
“Can I do this again?”

It’s your memory I’ll keep inside
And Butterscotch Mary would only be for that night
It’s your memory I’ll keep inside
And Butterscotch Mary would only be for that night
Track Name: A Great Escape
A Great Escape

What if you and I got out of this place?
Just like those old movies and make a great escape?
We could start again, start up whole new lives
No more living thoughts of stress or stepping back to compromise

Just like when we were young
And all our problems added up to none

What if we got out of here
And all our problems harkened back to where we used to be

What’s the first thing you’ll do when you get out?
Forgive yourself for getting broken down?
Let your thoughts caress the things you love
What matters most we got and we pushed back when it came to shove

Just like when we were young
And all our problems added up to none

What if we got out of here
And all our problems harkened back to where we used to be

And we can make our escape

What if we got out of here
And all our problems harkened back to where we used to be
Track Name: Lady
Lady

Lady, beautiful Lady
Where did I go to? Why did I run?
Oh and Lady, wonderful Lady
When will love come back? And can I return?

It doesn’t matter how many miles lay between us or how many years go by
I’ll remember the facial ticks you’d get when there was something on your mind
All those nights spent watching SNL repeats, drinking Earl Grey in our bedroom
Those times meant so much to me that I lost it without you

Lady, it seems that lately
The guilt from my actions has caught up with me
Oh and lately, I’m noticing faintly
A ghostly presence from my memory

Did I just imagine holding on to you like Romeo held Juliet?
Even though there were times I begged for forgiveness, taken by your baited breath
Thought I’d finally moved on to know somebody that could take away all my pain
But your memory never leaves, no, it never goes away

Oh Lady, oh Lady
Where did I run to? Why did I go?
Track Name: Ignite
Ignite


Working on my broke machines
Locked and fixated on wild and childish dreams
Praying for my time to come
You came into my little world and shook things up

That sight of you was set forever and made me forget things I’d found
Right then I changed all of my wanting when you said your name out aloud

Needing someone to repair my old guitar and broken heart with ease and care
Watching your hands tinker on with steadiness and understanding of my wants

That sight of you was set forever and made me forget things I’d found
Right then I changed all of my wanting when you said your name out aloud
Then I felt the sound pulse ignite

Playing with no end in sight
The melodies from both our hearts are intertwined
Tinkering on the broke and lost
You made me see I needed you no matter cost

And the aria sounds like a hurricane and I’ve never felt this much alive
And I feel our love is never ending and it seems that everything will turn out fine

Despite all the tragedies
You gave me hope to carry on and cherish all the little things
Oh Lady